Kinda Lost on General People in General

Ok, so I could talk about where I am, like some of the best bloggers do. At least, that's what I think the elite do. I could tell you how I'm in the basement of my science building, locked out of my classroom because I'm here thirty minutes early. I could tell you that I'm eating a Healthy Choice soup from a cup, and it tastes gourmet. Yep, mass-produced food can taste gourmet, if it's not been made by a cafeteria employee. It just tastes like it was made with a bit more... concern? Anyway, stylistic blogging ritual aside, lemme tell you what I'm really thinking:

Today I was walking on campus, thinking of a certain friend from high school, my best guy friend. He was a caring person, and we used to cut up with each other all the time in our AP Biology class. I began to think of the good times we had, the nicknames we had created, and just how sweet he was to me when life gave me lemons.

I then compared him to some of the friends I've met here in my freshman year of college. I have several sweet, caring friends here as well. It occurred to me that, sadly, all people are the same. Not that I've been jaded by anyone. I guess... just, after meeting so many people from all around the country, and around the world in this unique school of mine, I've come to realize that all people can be fit into a generalized group. You have your traditional perfectionist, your sweetheart that everyone loves, your social butterfly, your cool, rebel-type, the brainy kid, the awkward kid... the list goes on and on. It was a saddening thought.

And, as the typical young woman does, my thoughts turned to marriage. When one enters into married life, they are supposed to be together forever. That's two people, that in a certain walk of life, come together and make a commitment to stay together for all the rest of their walks of life. That one person will be with you through everything—through loss of friends, through a move, through the death of a loved one...

But if people are generally the same, how do you find "the one"? How do I know whether I want to spend the rest of my life with a brainy kid, or a music geek, or an athlete? I admit, people are complex, and have many combos of the basic examples I have listed, but a friend here in one state can be so much like a friend there in my home state, or another country! God aligns two people to commit in that certain walk of life, but which walk of life? How do I know when I've met "the one"? What if I make the committment to a person, and "the one" walks by me, and I'm unable to do anything?

I guess this... questioning... that I am doing seems to be a lack of faith. BUT—I know that God has someone set up for me down the road, and that he will be the best friend I've ever met, and we'll have so many similarities and he'll complement me and such. I know this.

After seeing more of the world, after spending 4 months with not one familiar face, I've learned to... hold my own, I guess? Because all people translate out to be the same. And in that, there is familiarity. I can connect with my sweet, compassionate friend here, because I've learned how to react to my friend there. I miss him, but then again, I can see these qualities in someone at school.

Maybe it's not so bad that we're all the same.

By now, I've been let into class, and my soup is cold, so let me end with this: I've got a heck of a lot to sort out in this new chapter—even if much of life has the same old flavor. But I guess every young adult has to figure that out.